The beginning
The day we met
It wasn’t anything dramatic, no grand moment, no music playing in the background, just an ordinary day in an engineering classroom. The kind of day that feels like every other, until much later, when you realize it wasn’t ordinary at all.
I still remember sitting there, half-listening, half-lost in my own thoughts, as the teacher began calling out attendance. Names came and went, nothing unusual until I heard hers. Something about the way her name sounded made me look up, just for a second longer than usual. I didn’t know it then, but that small moment would stay with me.
At the time, she was just another face in a crowded classroom. But curiosity has a funny way of growing quietly. Later, I found myself searching for her on Instagram, not with any big expectation, just a simple “let’s see.” And when I finally found her profile, I hesitated for a moment before sending a message.
Me: “Hey 👋”
Her: “Hajur”
Me: “SEC haina ta?👋”
Her: “Ho”
....And continued
It wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t planned. But it was real.
To my surprise, she replied. What started as a small, casual conversation slowly became something I began to look forward to. We talked about random things at first: college, classes, daily life; nothing too deep, just enough to keep the connection alive.
And then, somewhere along the way, I found out she already had a boyfriend.
For a moment, everything paused. It would’ve been easy to step back, to let the conversation fade like so many others do. But instead, I choose honesty over distance. I told her simply let’s just be best friends.
No expectations. No complications. Just a genuine connection.
And she said yes.
That “yes” didn’t feel small. It felt like the beginning of something different, something built not on chance alone, but on understanding. We didn’t start with love or promises. We started with friendship, something quieter, but sometimes even more meaningful.
Looking back, it’s strange how something so simple: a name during attendance, a random message, a small decision, can turn into a story worth remembering.
Because sometimes, the most important people in our lives don’t arrive with noise or certainty.
They just… appear, in the most unexpected ways.
The days to remember
The Journey
Our first lunch out wasn’t perfect, not the kind people usually dream about. It was simple, a bit awkward, and honestly… the food wasn’t even that good.
We went out for lunch in Kalanki. I remember expecting something more, maybe better food, better vibes, but it didn’t really turn out that way. The place was average, the taste didn’t impress us much, and there were moments of silence that felt longer than they actually were. But somehow, even in that imperfection, there was something real.
We talked, not about anything too deep at first, just small things. College, daily life, random topics. But beneath all that, there was a quiet comfort building. It wasn’t about the place or the food. It was about being there, together.
If I look back now, that day wasn’t “special” because everything went right. It was special because it was the beginning of us, messy, unplanned, and real.
Our Timeline — A Story of Ups and Downs
May 01, 2024 — LOST
That day wasn’t just about confusion, it was something far more serious. She had left home, and no one knew where she was. Everything felt uncertain, heavy, and filled with worry. It wasn’t about “us” or anything else anymore, it was about her safety. The thought of her being out there alone made that day feel long and restless.
May 08, 2024 — FOUND
After days of fear and unanswered questions, there was finally relief. Her parents found her near Pashupatinath. It wasn’t just a moment of being found, it was a moment where everything paused, and all that mattered was that she was safe. Imperfect, emotional, and overwhelming but she was back, and that was enough.
May 20, 2024 — TALKING STARTED; HUG
This was when things truly began. Conversations felt easier, and that first hug, simple but unforgettable, made everything feel closer.
June 30, 2024 — QUARRELING STARTED (Cause: Kiss)
Not everything stays smooth. Emotions got complicated, and misunderstandings started to grow.
July 01, 2024 — QUARRELING SETTLED
We tried to fix things. For a moment, it felt like we could handle anything.
July 04, 2024 — TALKING STOPPED (Cause Unknown)
Silence. The kind that hurts more than words.
July 05, 2024 — REASON: UNWANTED TOUCHES FROM ME
This became a turning point. A mistake that created distance, one that couldn’t be ignored or easily fixed.
July 08, 2024 — SHE COMPLETELY CHANGED
Everything felt different. The warmth, the connection, it all shifted.
July 09, 2024 — I FAILED TO CONVINCE HER
No matter what I said, it didn’t reach her.
July 11, 2024 — SHE COMPLETELY IGNORED ME
Being ignored felt heavier than any argument.
July 15, 2024 — BLOCKED (Instagram, Snapchat)
That was the moment it felt truly over. No contact, no connection.
July 19, 2024 — DREAM
Even in dreams, we were still fighting. That’s how deeply it stayed in my mind.
July 19, 2024 — UNBLOCKED (Instagram)
A small opening. Not everything was gone.
After that — Small Conversations Again
We started talking a little, in college, on Instagram, not the same as before, but not completely lost either.
August 10, 2024 — MAYBE NO TALKING AGAIN (It’s Majak)
Confusion returned. Nothing felt certain.
September 28, 2024 — SHE WENT BACK TO BIMAL
That was a hard moment. It felt like the end again. Like I no longer had a place in her story.
A turning point
When I fell for you
2025 — A Complicated Return
It wasn’t one single moment. It didn’t happen all at once. It was slow, confusing, and full of emotions I didn’t fully understand at the time.
You finally broke up with Bimal. I thought maybe that was the moment things would become clear for us, that maybe everything would finally fall into place. But feelings are never that simple.
Just before my birthday on 20th December, you found yourself getting close to Nabin. It hurt, but I also knew your heart wasn’t free yet. A part of you still held on to Bimal, and because of that, nothing with Nabin truly worked. It was like you were searching for something, but couldn’t fully give yourself to it.
Then came a moment of choice. Nabin asked you to leave me. It was simple for him, maybe logical too. But for you, it wasn’t.
And somehow, in all that confusion, you choose me.
Not as love. Not as something clearly defined. You choose me as your best friend.
That choice meant more than I ever said out loud. Because being choosen, even in that way, meant I had a place in your life that no one else could take.
March 13, 2025 — Holi
On March 13, during Holi, we met again. Colors filled the air, but so did emotions we never really sorted out. It felt different, intense, like something unfinished was pulling us back together.
March 18, 2025
By March 18, we were closer again. Maybe closer than we should have been, without understanding what we really were to each other.
March 20, 2025 — We Shared a Bed
That moment wasn’t just about closeness. It carried everything we had been through. The history, the confusion, the unspoken feelings. It wasn’t simple, and it didn’t give answers. If anything, it made things more real and more complicated at the same time.
When I think about when I fell for you, I realize it wasn’t about one day.
It was about all of it. The way you stayed. The way you left. The way you came back. And the way, even in the middle of everything, you still choose me.
What made it special wasn’t perfection.
It was the reality of it all. The conversations, the silence, the fights, the returns. The mistakes we made and the moments we couldn’t undo.
Some stories aren’t meant to be simple or easy.
But they stay with you.
Not because they were perfect, but because they were real.
Today & always
Every day with you
Not every day with you is perfect.
We argue, we misunderstand, we hurt each other sometimes. But even after everything, we are still here.
And that is what makes every ordinary moment feel extraordinary.
Since the day we shared a bed, something changed between us. It wasn’t just closeness anymore, it was love. Real, complicated, sometimes messy, but still love. The kind that doesn’t disappear even after fights, even after silence.
There were days we thought it was over.
October 09, 2025 — We broke up, but after a little time, we found our way back.
November 21, 2025 — It ended again, and somehow, we started again too.
March 08, 2026 — Another ending, another beginning.
March 16, 2026 — It ended once more.
March 17, 2026 — And still, we came back to each other.
No matter how many times things fall apart, something keeps bringing us back. Maybe it’s habit, maybe it’s attachment, or maybe it’s something deeper that neither of us can explain.
Before all this, before we even realized what we meant to each other, there was silence between us. A long silence.
392 hours 11 minutes 45 seconds and 88 milliseconds.
It sounds like just time. But it wasn’t. It was distance, ego, confusion, and everything we didn’t say. And yet, even after all that time apart, we still found our way back.
That’s what makes every small moment now matter.
The random talks.
The late-night conversations.
The small fights and the quick patch-ups.
Even the silence that no longer feels empty.
Because it’s not about having a perfect story.
It’s about choosing each other, again and again, even after everything.
And somehow, in all this chaos, every day with you still feels special.
